Tuesday, December 19, 2006

changes, modifications

Today is a new day to make a change in my life. I can become the person God's wants me to be if I just follow. It is amazing how clear things are when you stop swimming against the tide. Just submit and let go, all things I try to do on my own fail or are less than my goal, when I do things in Christs name then you can see the change. My attitude is better and so is my product. I have decided that the worlds view of me, and of womanhood no longer fit's the person that I am becoming. I want to be a Proverbs 31 women, I want to accept the blessings God has in store for me. I am currently reading Power of the Praying Wife and Power of the Praying Parent. I will write more later, I love you!

Monday, December 18, 2006

really? I think so.

I find it very interesting that the more I try to avoid or run away from something the closer it seems to be to me. For years (and I do mean years!) I have avoided, run from and flat out had an attitude about being ladylike. I know it sounds very lame, but I have never enjoyed dressing up or makeup at all, but the other day I found a website that encourage just that. It was about keeping your home, and family and it clicked to me. I love my husband and children, but I felt as though I was being pulled in so many directions and never arriving anywhere. I realized that because I had no plan to work from, I was always working and still everything looked less than what I had hoped to display. I know I am a work in progress, but I had stopped making an effort because it was easier to fall back on excuses of work, new baby, too tired, etc. I looked myself and didn't like what I saw... I like who I am, but in the mirror I saw sweats, big t-shirt and a ratty pony tail. It isn't fair to me, my husband, my family or God. I am made for more than just getting by, I am made for greatness.

I love me!